Ive been depressed and in a lot of pain. Meditation is the only thing that helps. My mind and negative thoughts are most likely the cause of my problems but i cant help. I cant stop thinking of HER. Im never going to not love her. I know im bad for her and shes worse for me, but she was my bestfriend. My everything. I can replace her physically, but no one will ever compare to her. Im confused. I need answers. I need psychedelics.